Lexapro withdrawal

When you start taking anti depression medicines they tell you to withdraw slowly.  When I initially got on Lexapro it was great for about 4 days.  Then I got on an adrenaline ride.  It was really dreadful.  I would just lie down on the couch to hold myself.  Unfortunately during this period I did spent too much money with a dangerous sense of abandon.  It was like a medically induced manic bi polar moment. I tried to stay on it for two weeks to see if the side effects went away.  They didn’t.  So my next move was to go off it slowly.   It was Christmas time and I wanted to feel better.  So I went off it too fast.  That is when the real nightmare began, and it is still going on a month later.  The very worst symptom is insomnia.  Every morning I wake up at 2:45 and can not sleep anymore.  The next worst symptoms are the feeling I have the flu, lots of body ache, and a type of blankness in my sense of my body and thought pattern.   I finally got some medicine that let’s me sleep until 4 and I can often fall back into a light sleep.  I feel ok in the morning but not great.  The rest of the symptoms just appear everyday.  The only change I can feel right now is that anxious thoughts are returning.  Never thought I would be happy to have anxious thoughts.  Also when I woke up last night my body felt more at ease.  I tried to take another anti depression drug to help the withdrawal but got really sick to my stomach.  Then I got a drug to deal with the stomach problem but that didn’t really work.  It took a few days for my stomach to return to normal. So now I am exercising a lot and drinking water.  Lesson learned, go off these drugs very slowly.