Am I Ok or Not

I am in a situation where on any objective scale the world would say I am a loving, caring and selfless person.  I have given my time and energy to help my family deal with a long term crisis.  However, my depression/anxiety makes it hard to feel that I have any worth.  I am much more comfortable being negative about myself.

My nightly challenge is to list what I did that day in a loving, caring and/or selfless way.  Lots of nights It is hard to think of anything good even when I have been helping people during the day.  I conveniently forget about good deeds.  The hope is that some night the true reality of what I did that day will crack my negativity so I can see what is real.  I have a sign next to my bed that reads “You are a kind, selfless and loving person”.  Reading it sometimes jogs the memory and sometimes it does not.