Randomness

“Whatever” by G.T. Dumas

Depression/Anxiety is a random disease. It is frightening because in reality I have done nothing to cause it.  Today there is no cure for depression/anxiety. There are drugs that make it bearable but what is actually going on in the brain is not understood.

Unfortunately one of the hallmark symptoms of depression/anxiety is to blame oneself for getting the disease. If there were a concrete explanation but no cure for depression/anxiety, would that help?   I really don’t know. I also wonder if my depression related PDSD is cause primarily by the randomness of my disease.  Why is my response to having depression/anxiety so personal? Having such a reaction seems ungrateful since I am able to manage my disease while three of my cousins  could not get a grip on the disease and ended up committing suicide.  Nevertheless, randomness is highly disconcerting.