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Death’s Aftermath
Recently two people close to me died suddenly. Given my depression/anxiety mental…
Today is an anxietying day…
There are always things to point to in a given day or days that worsen anxiety. I tend to…
Self Compassion
The gift I denied myself this year is Compassion. I feel plenty sorry for myself for…
Merging
Right now I am not doing well. So it is back to the basics If I think of depression as an illness, I can…
Randomness
Depression/Anxiety is a random disease. It is frightening because in reality I have done nothing…
Shame/Guilt before Trauma
I am in a traumatic situation. I have a sick newborn granddaughter who has been in the ICU…
Imagined Reality
Depression/anxiety often opens the door to an imagined reality. Externally I look and talk like…
PDSD
My granddaughter was given another operation on August 20th to connect her heart and lungs…
Death-One Year Later
A year ago, a loved one died. For the last month, my stomach has been feeling odd. Today…
Death is Confusing
I just saw someone I love take his last breath and die. I feel confused about how to feel and view…
Update on Dealing with Death
It has been a month and a half since my loved one died. In my last post, I talked about things…
St. Patrick Day – The Dark Side
Someone I love is dying. My heart is breaking. From what I hear, he is much diminished given…
Post-Traumatic Syndrome – Shock
My husband could have died, but was saved by coronary bypass surgery seven weeks ago…
Still Working on Flying Solo
It is difficult to imagine being alone and living a productive independent life. The thought…
Flying Solo
Each morning, I visualize that I am a separate person from those around me. The difficulty…
When Shit Happens and Keeps Coming
In my last post, I was lamenting that my PTSS symptoms had returned, because my grandchild…
Between Two Worlds
I am going back on my anti-depression medication after getting a perfect score on the…
Being Alone
Two weeks ago, I almost lost my husband to a heart attack. My initial plan if he had died…