Trying to Find the Moment

Right now I feel like I am not at the right point in the 60 seconds that makes up a minute. It feels like I am just a bit off the mark. I been going through a difficult time with my new granddaughter who has been in the Cardiac Intensive Care Unit since she was born, July 23. First, the doctors think she is going to die and then there is some hope and then it’s back to dying and right now we are swinging back to hope. This sing song experience has made my body and psychic feel very uncomfortable. I find myself eating until I am sick…thinking food can get me back into sinc and compulsively watching old comfort TV shows.  Obviously that is not working. I would “stay in the moment” but I am still trying to find the moment.  I did go to the gym this morning.