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12 Steps | Addictions | Anti-Depressives & Effects | Anxiety | Depression
Electro Shock Treatment | Holidays | Medical Care | Phobias | Suicide
Alien for a Day
Between the holidays, my worry about my own family’s health and the fact that a person who…
Turbo Charged Anxiety
I have a severe anxiety problem. I also am full of phobias. My most dangerous phobia…
Free Floating Anxiety
When an average person says I feel “anxious”. Most people understand the feeling…
Depression is a Serious and Deadly Illness
First order of business: Since electro-shock treatments (ECT) induces a seizure, all medicines…
Chasing The Light – Electro Shock
My depression has deepened. I have been in a very bad place for most of May and now June…
It Descends
Saturday I was sitting in a restaurant having a delicious hamburger and out of the blue…
Anxiety Everyday
Every morning I wake up anxious, a sensation in my body of excess tension. I try to…
Imaginary Thinking
When one is three you use imaginary thinking to understand the world. If something bad…
Am I Ok or Not
I am in a situation where on any objective scale the world would say I am a loving, caring…
Manic to Forstall Depression/Anxiety
December/January are dangerous months for me. It is an iconic period that interweaves…
Merging
Right now I am not doing well. So it is back to the basics If I think of depression as an illness, I can…
Randomness
Depression/Anxiety is a random disease. It is frightening because in reality I have done nothing…
Sleep
I am having a depression related sleep problem. I fall asleep easily around ten but wake up…
Shame/Guilt before Trauma
I am in a traumatic situation. I have a sick newborn granddaughter who has been in the ICU…
The Line between Life and Death
Life and Death are relative terms. Life/death can be about physical or mental death. In my case…
Depression-Where Are You?
The confusing and hard part about having the disease of depression/anxiety is to understand…
Anxiety and Success
Anxiety cheats me out the pleasure of success. It feels like success does not exist…
Trying to Find the Moment
Right now I feel like I am not at the right point in the 60 seconds that makes up a minute…